Does God hate me or is he just not real?

I am a 25 year old woman who is very nice, polite and try to be a good person all the time, but yet who has been struggling so bad and so much my whole life with abuse by a lot of people, and even physically abuse. I have ADD which I hate and want to go away. I have put on over 60 pounds for not doing it on purpose at all, medications own fault and my old physciatrist didin't even care therefor I've been called fat, ugly, ect. and she missed diagnosed all her patients with bipolar disorder. I'm addicted to the drugs for ADD when I've prayed and begged for God to cure my or help with my ADD when he didn't, he let me become a drug addict instead. There is a lot of things that I have prayed for and some that were very serious and I always get NOTHING out of it. I am starting to have serious doubts and realize that religion is made up by a bunch of people to scare others and that God, Jesus Christ, Heaven, and hell are nothing but fairy tales and the bible is man made. And I am thinking about just moving on with my life and live for myself, my family and for my friends and forget about religion because it did nothing good but do harm to me.